Online dating scares
Focusing your attention on others as a way to not look in the mirror, and find what is truly wrong, hurting or uncomfortable at this moment in our own lives.It's really easy to think that when you find someone a lot of your issues will just subside or disappear, but the truth is until you start to work on you, you'll never be happy, coupled up or single.Like basically every person alive right now, I tried online dating.I figured if I wasn't on there, I was missing out, missing an opportunity and missing finding my person.If you live in a cosmopolitan like myself then chances are you aren't necessarily bored a lot because you have work, friends, fitness and a ton of other things constantly at your disposal, but boredom somehow creeps up on you.All of a sudden you're bored at work, bored at home, bored with your friends, bored at the gym. Life just isn't as exciting as you want it to be, and the thought that maybe just around the next swipe is the person you've been searching for all along is exciting.
However, when you finally admit this to yourself, you take the first step to changing all of that. It Made Me Crazy Thinking about who I could meet, having numerous conversations with multiple people and trying to keep up with all of it was exhausting.
It's dishonest, dull and way too technical for something that shouldn't be so systematic. I Wasn't Happy While I didn't realize this till months later, I was simply unhappy with my life.
I was using the idea of dating as an escape from my own life because well, it's an easy distraction, and even easier the more venues, or apps, you have to keep the hunt alive.
I was holding myself back, I was playing up certain parts of myself, and playing down other characteristics, all so I could be more "desirable." I became who I thought I was supposed to be, not who I was.
I acted more way casual, and less emotional than I really am.